Doctors make me nervous

Having a doctor's appointment tomorrow, I'm gaining on nervousness each minute.
When I was a child I used to be sick so often that I got used to doctors, hospitals, needles. Seems to me that I have been much braver as a 12-year-old that I am now. I got spoilt and cowardly in the meantime.
It is not so difficult to go to a doctor when you're unwell. Then you have no option. But going to a doctor for a regular check-up - knowing that you ought to go for your own good, yet still don't wanting to go. That is upsetting.
Health has always been a sensitive topic for me. There were times when I was very suspicious when I felt OK. "There must be something wrong with something..." , I used to think. I still sometimes feel like that. Especially when I'm supposed to see a doctor.
So now the butterflies in my stomach are multiplying. Knowing myself, I'll probably be anxious by morning.
Then again, it will be over soon enough and everything will probably be fine again. At least until I look at my pocket book that will remind me that I am still to see my dentist, ophthalmologist and hairdresser (the last one being my biggest nightmare of the lot).

Taking things for granted

If you asked me if I take things for granted, I would have disagreed strongly. Honestly, I don't.
Not many people think about this, but I do. And I always try to appreciate the good things in my life including the life itself. Most of all I appreciate the love I have and the person I share it with. That is something I would NEVER take for granted! Or would I?
Talking on the phone with a friend of mine earlier today, I was taken aback with my reaction. She made an insinuation how happy and relaxed must I be because last night I went to see my boyfriend. I immediately made a sarcastic reply how the only thing that I could have gotten from that visit was loads of viruses (for my boyfriend is sick), and how, after all, I was there for only few minutes. Then she told me: "Yes my dear, but seeing him must have made you so happy!" And, of course, she was right. It did make me extremely happy to be able to spend even that little time with him. So why didn't I think of that instead of making a sad sarcastic comment?
This conversation got me thinking how lucky I am and how many lonely souls are there in the world!
Somehow, this doesn't seem to be a big deal, and someone might say that I'm splitting hairs and have no better things to do (which I do) than to think about trifles. To me it was not something insignificant. I was more a kind of warning so that I don't indulge in thinking that I am above taking things for granted. But moreover, it hurt when I realised how poorly, even though for a brief moment, I appreciated the best thing I have in life, a thing that only rare ones, blessed ones have and must cherish zealously lest to loose it.

Hard work

Why would anyone like to work hard when there are more easier ways? Why, when you know that you will be tired, and no one likes that feeling. We are all in quest of pleasures in life and have been thought that pleasure equals no pain, which equals no hard work and no tiredness. We have become so spoilt! There are times when hard work is what brings the pleasurable fruits. There are also times when hard work is a pleasure in itself. There are times when it is both. And tiredness? Just imagine how good it feels when you feel the sweet tiredness when you are slowly dozing off to oblivion... Oh, how hard work can be worth it!
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Depression healer

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